split decisions

December 7th, 2009

Lately I have become increasingly aware of a tendency in myself that I find most annoying. I’ve noticed that in a lot of instances, the more I want something, the more I act in a completely opposite manner. Recently I’ve been wanting to meet new people for various reasons, but I haven’t been outgoing at all. In fact, I’ve been just the opposite – I’ve been intentionally isolating myself, spending as much time by myself as possible. Which has left me with a lot of questions, of which the biggest one is, why?

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double jeopardy

December 3rd, 2009

Though you’re probably aware of this already, it’s been over a week since my last real post. In the intervening time, I’ve been dealing with two health issues: an injury to the big toe of my left foot, and some sort of viral infection, which has stayed around much longer than anticipated. It is the viral issue which kept me away from the computer during Thanksgiving week, and resulted in a significant increase in sleep to try and get over it, along with a decease in energy. I may not be quite over it yet, but I’m much closer than I was last week – or even as recently as Monday night.Monday night I went to class as usual, and was looking forward to it after being out for over a week. Unfortunately, I had to leave early as I nearly needed to visit to the bathroom to throw up. That was bad enough, but nearly two weeks on, my left big toe is still giving me problems. I was unable to do two of our regular falls because of not being able to put certain kinds of pressure on it, I’m using dit da jow and zheng gu shui on it twice a day, but I can’t say how long it will take to heal.

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happy thanksgiving

November 26th, 2009

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!  I apologize for my lack of posts over the last few days, I’ve been fighting off a cold and not had the energy to write.  Look for my regular posting to start again in the next day or two as I get rested up and feeling better.  I am thankful for a lot of things, but let me just say, thanks for reading this blog!

increasing flexibility

November 20th, 2009

<meta content="OpenOffice.org 2.4 (Linux)" name="GENERATOR" /> <style type="text/css"> <!-- @page { size: 8.5in 11in; margin: 0.79in } P { margin-bottom: 0.08in } -</style>I had a back injury recently, I did it in the last class we had before the martial arts clinic I was at 2 weeks ago. It wasn’t the back itself, actually, but rather the SI joint just to the right of the spine in the low back, The SI joint is also known as the sacro-iliac, where the sacrum and pelvis connect, The end result was that my hips were out of alignment, their range of movement was limited, but it didn’t hurt the entire time. Rather, it hurt mainly when I straightened my right leg, especially when I was standing, which would cause my muscles to spasm. It was 4 days before someone looked at and fixed it for me. Word of advice – if your back goes out, the longer it stays out, the more it’s going to hurt when it gets put back. In my case it was enough to make me cry, and not just a little.</p> <p> <a href="http://www.phagos.org/2009/11/20/increasing-flexibility/#more-332">Read the rest of this entry »</a> </p> </div> <p class="postmetadata">Posted in <a href="http://www.phagos.org/category/life/" title="View all posts in life" rel="category tag">life</a>, <a href="http://www.phagos.org/category/martial-arts/" title="View all posts in martial arts" rel="category tag">martial arts</a>, <a href="http://www.phagos.org/category/metaphysics/" title="View all posts in metaphysics" rel="category tag">metaphysics</a> | <a href="http://www.phagos.org/2009/11/20/increasing-flexibility/#respond" title="Comment on increasing flexibility">No Comments »</a></p> </div> <div class="post" id="post-331"> <h2><a href="http://www.phagos.org/2009/11/18/improved-writing/" rel="bookmark" title="Permanent Link to improved writing">improved writing</a></h2> <small>November 18th, 2009 <!-- by phagos --></small> <div class="entry"> <p><meta content="text/html; charset=utf-8" http-equiv="CONTENT-TYPE" /> <title /> <meta content="OpenOffice.org 2.4 (Linux)" name="GENERATOR" /> <style type="text/css"> <!-- @page { size: 8.5in 11in; margin: 0.79in } P { margin-bottom: 0.08in } --> </style>Since I’ve gotten this netbook, I’ve done a lot more blogging, writing my entries at lunch and posting them when I get home, or the following morning. I hope you’ve been reading my recent entries, I think they’re some of the best writing I’ve ever done in my life. It’s definitely been some of the most important – important for me, at least. This is some of the deepest thinking I’ve done in a while, about things that make a difference in my life. I mean a fundamental difference, not just superficial or artificial.</p> <p> <a href="http://www.phagos.org/2009/11/18/improved-writing/#more-331">Read the rest of this entry »</a> </p> </div> <p class="postmetadata">Posted in <a href="http://www.phagos.org/category/life/" title="View all posts in life" rel="category tag">life</a>, <a href="http://www.phagos.org/category/writing/" title="View all posts in writing" rel="category tag">writing</a>, <a href="http://www.phagos.org/category/passion/" title="View all posts in passion" rel="category tag">passion</a> | <a href="http://www.phagos.org/2009/11/18/improved-writing/#comments" title="Comment on improved writing">1 Comment »</a></p> </div> <div class="post" id="post-330"> <h2><a href="http://www.phagos.org/2009/11/13/do-what-you-love-anyway/" rel="bookmark" title="Permanent Link to do what you love anyway">do what you love anyway</a></h2> <small>November 13th, 2009 <!-- by phagos --></small> <div class="entry"> <p>Last night I went to the SC Philharmonic Orchestra concert, something I do every once in a while. They had a special performer, Wu Man. She is the acknowledged foremost expert in the world on the Pipa, a traditional Chinese instrument, and it definitely showed. In the program for last night, it mentioned the fact that while there are tenured chairs in the orchestra, the orchestra members are not payed on a salary basis, but rather on a per concert basis. Long story short, if you’re in the orchestra, it’s not for the money – you have to have another job if you want to pay the bills. So while I was sitting there, enjoying the music created by dozens of musicians, I was also doing some thinking. There I was, sitting in a concert, having payed substantially less than a “regular” concert, listening to musicians whose primary motivation is playing for the love of playing. Doing something for the love of it. Hmmm.</p> <p> <a href="http://www.phagos.org/2009/11/13/do-what-you-love-anyway/#more-330">Read the rest of this entry »</a> </p> </div> <p class="postmetadata">Posted in <a href="http://www.phagos.org/category/life/" title="View all posts in life" rel="category tag">life</a> | <a href="http://www.phagos.org/2009/11/13/do-what-you-love-anyway/#comments" title="Comment on do what you love anyway">1 Comment »</a></p> </div> <div class="post" id="post-329"> <h2><a href="http://www.phagos.org/2009/11/12/angels-and-the-light/" rel="bookmark" title="Permanent Link to angels and the light">angels and the light</a></h2> <small>November 12th, 2009 <!-- by phagos --></small> <div class="entry"> <p><title /> <meta content="OpenOffice.org 3.0 (Linux)" name="GENERATOR" /> <style type="text/css"> <!-- @page { margin: 0.79in } P { margin-bottom: 0.08in</style>At the martial arts clinic I attended last week, I took a Huna 2 class. We talked about a lot of things, and one of them was the Hawaiian perspective of the spiritual world, which is remarkably similar to many pagans (or maybe more accurately, ours is similar to theirs). It seems that Huna has guardian angels as well, though the word is obviously different. I’ve been thinking about these magnificent beings lately. My thoughts on the subject are not clear yet, so if you’re reading, this may be a bit confused as I try to write my way to some clarity.</p> <p> <a href="http://www.phagos.org/2009/11/12/angels-and-the-light/#more-329">Read the rest of this entry »</a> </p> </div> <p class="postmetadata">Posted in <a href="http://www.phagos.org/category/life/" title="View all posts in life" rel="category tag">life</a>, <a href="http://www.phagos.org/category/martial-arts/" title="View all posts in martial arts" rel="category tag">martial arts</a>, <a href="http://www.phagos.org/category/pagan-subjects/" title="View all posts in pagan subjects" rel="category tag">pagan subjects</a>, <a href="http://www.phagos.org/category/metaphysics/" title="View all posts in metaphysics" rel="category tag">metaphysics</a>, <a href="http://www.phagos.org/category/law-of-attraction/" title="View all posts in law of attraction" rel="category tag">law of attraction</a> | <a href="http://www.phagos.org/2009/11/12/angels-and-the-light/#respond" title="Comment on angels and the light">No Comments »</a></p> </div> <div class="post" id="post-328"> <h2><a href="http://www.phagos.org/2009/11/10/the-mat-is-everywhere/" rel="bookmark" title="Permanent Link to the mat is everywhere">the mat is everywhere</a></h2> <small>November 10th, 2009 <!-- by phagos --></small> <div class="entry"> <p>Fr<title /><meta content="OpenOffice.org 2.4 (Linux)" name="GENERATOR" /><style type="text/css"> <!-- @page { size: 8.5in 11in; margin: 0.79in } P { margin-bottom: 0.08in } </style>om Thursday November 5<sup>th</sup> through November 8<sup>th</sup>, I had the privilege of once again attending the martial arts clinic put on by our school. As usual, it was a fantastic experience – I always learn a lot, get to meet new people, and see old friends. I wrote in a blog entry before the clinic that I thought something big was going to happen at the clinic that would change things, and I wasn’t disappointed. I learned a lot of new things, that if I put them into practice, will irrevocably change me, and by extension, my life. But the things that is likely to have the most impact in the short term was not said by a teacher, but by a fellow student.</p> <p> <a href="http://www.phagos.org/2009/11/10/the-mat-is-everywhere/#more-328">Read the rest of this entry »</a> </p> </div> <p class="postmetadata">Posted in <a href="http://www.phagos.org/category/life/" title="View all posts in life" rel="category tag">life</a>, <a href="http://www.phagos.org/category/martial-arts/" title="View all posts in martial arts" rel="category tag">martial arts</a>, <a href="http://www.phagos.org/category/change/" title="View all posts in change" rel="category tag">change</a>, <a href="http://www.phagos.org/category/metaphysics/" title="View all posts in metaphysics" rel="category tag">metaphysics</a>, <a href="http://www.phagos.org/category/law-of-attraction/" title="View all posts in law of attraction" rel="category tag">law of attraction</a> | <a href="http://www.phagos.org/2009/11/10/the-mat-is-everywhere/#respond" title="Comment on the mat is everywhere">No Comments »</a></p> </div> <div class="post" id="post-327"> <h2><a href="http://www.phagos.org/2009/11/03/planned-break/" rel="bookmark" title="Permanent Link to planned break">planned break</a></h2> <small>November 3rd, 2009 <!-- by phagos --></small> <div class="entry"> <p><meta content="OpenOffice.org 2.4 (Linux)" name="GENERATOR" /> <style type="text/css"> <!-- @page { size: 8.5in 11in; margin: 0.79in } P { margin-bottom: 0.08in } --> </style>This may be my last blog for the next few days – two days from now, I’ll be standing on a mat in a hotel meeting room, enjoying the company and instruction of fellow martial artists for four consecutive days. Once again it’s time for the martial arts clinic that is presented by my school each year. As with year’s passed, I’m really getting excited a bout going, though I won’t be testing for my black belt as originally planned after last year’s clinic. The line up of instructors is nothing short of spectacular, as usual, I have already seen the list of classes, and I have one word to describe them – awesome!</p> <p> <a href="http://www.phagos.org/2009/11/03/planned-break/#more-327">Read the rest of this entry »</a> </p> </div> <p class="postmetadata">Posted in <a href="http://www.phagos.org/category/life/" title="View all posts in life" rel="category tag">life</a>, <a href="http://www.phagos.org/category/martial-arts/" title="View all posts in martial arts" rel="category tag">martial arts</a> | <a href="http://www.phagos.org/2009/11/03/planned-break/#respond" title="Comment on planned break">No Comments »</a></p> </div> <div class="post" id="post-326"> <h2><a href="http://www.phagos.org/2009/11/02/planned-obsolescence/" rel="bookmark" title="Permanent Link to planned obsolescence">planned obsolescence</a></h2> <small>November 2nd, 2009 <!-- by phagos --></small> <div class="entry"> <p>My dehydrator quit early last week. It was somewhere in the neighborhood of 3-4 years old. This seems to be the year of everything falling apart. My heat pump has developed a problem as well, and someone is coming to look at it Monday. It’s an outdoor unit, since it won’t fit in the crawlspace under the house. At almost 10 years old, the unit is rapidly approaching the end of its working days. I have to admit that over the last few years,the whole idea of maintenance of things has been on my mind more often, and with all the things occurring the last few months, I find myself thinking about planning for the replacement of things that are going to break, Having reached the point some time ago that I have sufficient means to handle recurring day to day living expenses, I find that it’s time to start planning for the recurring but infrequent and larger expenses that life imposes on us. 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