Have you ever been going along, minding your own business, when something suddenly hits you and changes the way you look at your entire life? I’m not talking about an accident or sudden misfortune, but a shift in perspective that causes what seems like total chaos to re-order itself into something completely different. I had such an experience this morning, and my life will never be the same.
Yesterday I was doing my grocery shopping as I usually do Saturday mornings, and when I stopped in one store I found something I haven’t seen in at least a couple years: chestnuts. Like pumpkin pie, chestnuts typically only come around once a year. Sadly, they are getting harder and harder to find.
Yesterday and today were a study of contrasts. Yesterday I was restless, couldn’t hardly sit still, it was definitely worse after I got home than it was at work, where I couldn’t hardly sit still anyway. Watching part of The Matrix helped, but it didn’t last long. I had an unpleasant dream last night… I can’t say nightmare, because it wasn’t frightening, but I would have been better off without it, I think. I kinda picked up where I left off this morning until I got to visit Riverbanks.
I’ve been learning quite a bit about myself lately, some good, some I want to change. Today I learned a couple things about myself, and found my faith again - in myself and in Great Spirit, Higher Power, God, Goddess - whatever term you use for deity. (Warning - lengthy post ahead)