the phagos blog

If someone were to ask me what my biggest challenge is, I would have to say it is remaining consistent over time, as my sensei has noted. In jujitsu, this has expressed itself as the tendency to not attend class regularly. I can give you any number of reasons why I have not done so, but the truth is, it’s a character flaw, plain and simple. I’m telling you this not because I’m proud of it, but because I need to think, and I do some of my best thinking while I’m writing, among other things. Maybe it would be more accurate to say I do some of my best thinking when I’m not actually thinking, or at least, not thinking about a particular subject. (more…)

Last Thursday was an interesting day, way too interesting for my taste. It started out well enough, and looked to be a very promising day – until I’d been at work for about 10 minutes and the day went to hell for a while. A hell of my own making, but hell nonetheless. Today, rather than letting it stay there and stewing about it, I decided to do something about it. (more…)

I recently finished reading Paulo Coelho’s excellent book The Alchemist. One of the things he spends some time talking about in the book is the idea that omens are the language of the world, a language spoken through the entire world, but unique to every individual, because every individual has a different dream they are trying to realize. Looking back on my life, I can see how omens have appeared at the important junctures, and how following them (or not) has affected my life. I bring this up because I am seeing them again, an indicator that something very important in my life is about to occur.

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Let me start by apologizing for the time since my last post. I’ve been concentrating more on my jujitsu notebook and trying to get over a sinus infection, which has left little energy or desire to write. Now, on with the post. Lately I’ve been getting some messages from the universe, on a regular basis and some of them are becoming increasingly insistent. Perhaps the most pressing of these is that the universe is asking me to choose the main direction my life will take for some time to come. (more…)

I went to the movies this past weekend, the first time I’ve gone in several months. I went to see the very excellent movie Avatar, but I’m not really going to talk about the movie, but rather the knowledge that it reminded me of.

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I mentioned in my previous post an interesting discovery I’d made about myself. I described it to a friend of mine this way: as soon as I figure out that I want something, I stop doing anything or don’t start doing what I need to do in order to manifest it. I’ve been thinking about it for a couple of days, and have come up with some thoughts about why this might be, and what to do about it.

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