the week of yes, day 2
It’s midday of day 2 of the week of yes. Just a little while ago I inadvertently committed a faux pax by saying no when invited to lunch by one of my friends, but I think I’ll survive. It’s really the first thing I’ve been asked where I had the opportunity to say yes since starting yesterday, and I goofed. Well, at least I’m aware of it, and rather quickly. Though I can’t make up for it, next time I will remember to say yes before I manage to say no again.
Interestingly, if nothing else, this week will make me more aware of how few times I’m asked something that I can say yes to. I don’t know if this is because people around me expect me to say no and so don’t bother to ask, or if there’s some other reason. I have no trouble coming up with reasons why I might not be asked,, but I won’t speculate on those.
Yesterday I did something I wasn’t sure I’d ever do – I had a conversation with a very lovely woman here at work. The conversation itself was not very long, or deep, but the fact that we were taling represents a lot of progress for me. Just a few months ago I would have considered someone like her totally out of my league and never worked up the courage to say anything to her at all. Now it’s no longer about leagues, it’s about the courage to live life. I quit putting her on a pedestal, and as a result, I was able to have a perfectly normal conversation with her. Just so you understand me, I have no designs on her, since I don’t even know her. Time will tell what will happen.
It has required a shift in my thinking to get where I am now. It seems like recently I’ve become aware of all the beautiful women around me that aren’t in my life. Well, directly involved, anyway. Instead of seeing them as separate from me, I’m changing my perspective and seeing them as a reflection of the beauty I’m finding inside myself. It’s helping me to realize they aren’t unattainable, because there’s nothing to attain – they are already part of my life. If there wasn’t beauty inside of me, I wouldn’t be seeing it around me. My outer world is a reflection of my inner world, and that means my inner world must be pretty darn beautiful based on what I’ve been seeing lately.
Isn’t it interesting how a change in perspective can affect your life so deeply? Circumstances will be circumstances – it’s how we choose to see them that makes the difference in whether they are good or bad.