the company of others
I’m in the finishing stages of getting over a sinus infection. This one was particularly nasty, and I think it had been building for quite some time. Typically, when I get sick I don’t want to be around people much, and this time was no exception. Unlike past bouts, that desire seems to be sticking around.
Being an introvert by nature, I tend to avoid social situations anyway, The last couple days, though I’ve been feeling better, I find myself avoiding all but a select group of friends. I’ve found excuses not to go to the dojo, I have effectively abandoned MySpace, and my time on both Facebook and Twitter have been minimal. At war with that is the desire to find someone special, to have a relationship that I haven’t had in some time. Yet, I can’t find the desire to put myself into the types of social situations necessary for that to occur.
I have a very similar thing occurring at work too – I find it dull and boring, and the thing that interests me I can’t work on, at least not for the moment. Doing Android development has captured my imagination, even though I don’t own an Android based phone just yet – I’m still 2 ½ months away from being able to upgrade my phone to one.
In both cases, the answer is the same – time. It will not be long before I can upgrade my phone. As for the relationship, I’m not overly happy about the situation, but there doesn’t appear to be a lot I can do about it at the moment. I’ve learned, and am learning to live with things that don’t necessarily make me happy, but sometimes you don’t have a choice.
I have an appt to get some acupuncture done tomorrow, I’m trying to shift it to tonight. If that doesn’t work, I don’t know if I’m going to class or not – I know I need to because of the test, but I could care less if I do. Gotta do something to snap out of this.