confidence
I’ve been thinking about this subject a lot lately - wishing I had a bit more in some areas. It’s amazing to me, how intertwined this is with faith, belief, and knowledge - things that are central to our way of living in this world. I started thinking about this recently when I found myself wanting to achieve something, and I remember thinking to myself, if only I had the confidence to make this happen. Which was a big clue that what I really wanted was confidence, not necessarily the thing itself.
In fact, I do want the thing. But I’m putting it on the back burner until I take care of my internal work. The first order of business, from my perspective, is to recognize the confidence I have and bring it out in other areas. After all, if you ask me how to do certain things with a computer, I’m confident that I can tell you correctly without hesitation. In other areas, I’d be pretty useless, simply because I don’t have the knowledge. Perhaps that’s the real source of my difficulty - tying my confidence to what I do and don’t know.
If I’m confident about nothing else, I know I have the ability to learn anything I want to learn - it is one of my two or three strongest abilities. I think it’s about time I start asking this question a bit more - what would I do if were confident about what I am doing right now? Words without action are empty, so I need to act on the answer to that question when I ask it as well.
Perfect practice makes perfect. Act confident in all situations, pretty soon I will be confident in all situations. Confidence isn’t just a trait, it’s a habit - one that can be learned, just like anything else.
Interesting the things you can learn early in the morning.