the phagos blog

I went to the gardens last Monday when I was on vacation, as I do every Sunday, but that day held a rather big surprise for me.  I was taking my pictures, as I do every week, and after a couple hours, I found myself feeling rather tired, wanting to sit down and less than motivated.  And that’s when I flipped the switch.

I realized that I was tired and wanting to stop because of my mind, not my body.  Sure my legs were a little worn, since I’d been walking the last couple hours, but I did that every weekend.  I consciously decided that wasn’t what I wanted, that I wanted to keep going, not just that moment in the gardens, but with everything.  I was done being wishy washy.  I hadn’t even realized it, but I’d been stooping a bit while walking, and now I stood up straight, re-energized, as if someone had plugged me into a wall socket and turned on the switch.

Things have been different for me since then, it’s like some connection got made that hadn’t been made before, or hadn’t been made in a long time, more likely.  I’m in a much better place mentally than I was, and things are looking better and brighter.

Observing myself since then, I see that I’m still doing some things that will prevent or slow me in reaching some of my goals, so I’ve decided to flip a few more switches.  As of noon today, about two and one half hours ago, I embarked on a 28 day challenge for myself - to become as healthy as I possibly can in all areas of my life.  This means how I eat, what I think, what I do - how I live in general.  Because it’s a huge time waster for me, I’m going back to my minimal television rules - no live tv, and limited tv on the weekends.  My goals require a time investment, and the best way to get time to reach my goals is to stop wasting it elsewhere.  I’m not a professional tv watcher, so I’m going to do something else for my default behavior now, something goal related.  I remember what a huge impact my experiment with minimal tv had for the week I did it, I can only imagine what it will be like for four weeks.

I used to say in a lot of my posts that things are going to change, but not any more.  They already have - I just have to live it now.

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