perpetual student
Last night, after spending all day in restorative therapy class, I went to a social dance, for the third, and likely, final time. For the last three months I’ve been taking beginning ballroom dancing lessons on Tuesday nights, and it’s been enjoyable, but I haven’t actually used any of my learning outside of class. In other words, all I’ve done during those three social dances was sit and watch. Last night really just confirmed for me what I already knew - I don’t really fit into the crowd of people that go dancing, dancing really isn’t my thing either, and I’m really just a perpetual student.
Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy dancing, but it’s not exactly a one person activity. Looking back, I’ve figured out that the time I abandon something I’ve learned about is when it comes time to actually do something instead of just learning about it. I’m a learning machine, it seems to be what I do best. Maybe I’m just easily bored, or I haven’t found whatever it is that will hold my interest to keep doing it, but it seems like when I’ve learned what I want, I simply discard the subject and move on.
I haven’t yet figured out if part of the moving on process is figuring out that I don’t fit in with the people who do whatever it is or if I’m simply not interested in it enough to keep doing it, or maybe I don’t want to become the kind of person I see the people who have done whatever for a while. I have some thoughts about that I’ll be writing soon.
About the only things I can say for certain now are that I’m not a social person, so activities involving social skills don’t rank high on my list, and I learn a lot, and still have a lot to learn.