remembrance and miscellany
Just some random thoughts for the past week…
Tuesday I found myself at work thinking, gee, it was 7 years ago today that my late wife passed on, and oddly she was on my mind the rest of the week for some reason, when I rarely think of her.
Yesterday was my birthday, i treated it pretty much like any other day, except for going out to dinner and eating too much. I watched a lot of tv yesterday too. I figured since it was my birthday, one day wouldn’t hurt. I watched the last half of American Beauty again, a movie that I love that also depresses the hell out of me. I love that speech at the end of the movie:
“I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me,
but it’s hard to stay mad when there’s so much beauty in the world.
Sometimes I feel like I’m seeing it all at once and it’s too much,
my heart fills up like a balloon that’s about to burst.
And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it.
And then it flows through me like rain,
and I can’t feel anything but gratitude
for every moment of my stupid little life.
You have no idea what I’m talking about,
but don’t worry, you will someday.”
My girlfriend is coming to visit today, she should be here in a couple hours. I can’t wait until she gets here.
I went to the gardens today, as I usually do on Sundays. The trees are leafing out, and I could feel the energy of the trees coming awake, filling me with the desire to so something ‘hasty’, as the Ents would say. Some days are great, some aren’t. Today is.