aunty social
Ok, so it’s really spelled anti-social, but it made you look. I don’t know why exactly, but I have been feeling anti-social lately. Not in a ‘I need a little alone time can we talk later’ kind of way, but more of a ‘leave me alone because I really just want to hurt you while you talk to me’ kind of way. Not that I would, just that right now talking to someone at work is like rubbing a dull knife on an exposed nerve - it’s driving me crazy.
It’s extended into my life outside work as well somewhat - I don’t want to go to the dojo, or the store, or anywhere else there might be people if I can avoid it. I get like this now and then, for reasons I haven’t really figured out. Well, not entirely true in this case, I think. The work environment is more open, and I can see 3 or 4 other people from cube. If I talk on the phone, half the area can hear it - it annoys me greatly, especially when someone gets up afterwards and says something to me about the conversation I just had. If I wanted their opinion I would have asked for it. If I needed to know it, why didn’t you tell me earlier. Just piss off and leave me alone.
Being slightly more diplomatic than that, I manage to refrain from saying such things, I just need to get through the end of this phase. Maybe I’ll burn a day off to stay away from the office. I really wanted to this morning, and though nothing untoward happened at work, I found myself wishing I had.
There are a couple of readers that have sent me emails that I need to respond to. Please be patient, I promise I’ll get back to you in a couple days when I’m feeling more like having contact with people again.