random thoughts
The last couple days have been interesting. Ok, that’s really just a euphemism for they sucked. Not so much today, but definitely yesterday. I was still tired yesterday from the weekend, couldn’t make it through jujitsu class. that hasn’t happened in a while. I think a lot of it has to do with my diet lately, which has been affected by the fact that I just haven’t felt like doing the dishes.
There’s no big point to this, just noticing that I really haven’t wanted to do dishes lately. I’ve been kind of sensitive and moody lately, my emotions have been like a scraped knee or elbow - not something you give much thought to until it gets scraped, then every little touch just seems to irritate it or make it hurt. I figure I’m still in a detox phase of some sort, but I’m not doing a very good job of staying away from what I’m detoxing. Autointoxication, I believe the term is.
Tonight I had planned to come home, work out, then do the dishes and do my food prep, which I still haven’t done, because I still haven’t done the dishes. I sat in front of the tv for a long time tonight, flipping through the guide looking for something to watch, and not really finding anything appealing, but not really able to shut it off and get up and do something. Eventually I just ordered enough pizza for three nights’ suppers and had that, finished watching a martial art instructional dvd while playing with one of my cats, and now I’m blogging. Which is an improvement, because earlier tonight I didn’t even feel like doing this.
For someone with a number of large goals for the coming year, I don’t seem to be in any hurry to do anything to achieve them right now. Maybe I’m just resting up, gathering my strength for what’s coming. More likely I’m just being lazy and need to kick myself in the butt. i keep telling myself I’m going to clean up the house so I can do certain things in here that take room, and I never seem to get to them either.
Well, there’s always this weekend. If I put as much energy into doing it as I do blogging about it, it shouldn’t take long at all.