winds of change
I’ve been remiss in my writing duties the last week, while I re-adjust to life after the clinic. Although Samhain has come and gone, I want to go back and revisit it for this entry. As is my tradition, I do a tarot reading for myself during Samhain, so that those on the other side can communicate with me if they so wish. This year was not disapointing in that regard.
I actually did two readings, but they both said basically the same thing, which should come as no surprise to anyone alive: change is coming. Some of this change will be at my discretion, or at least I will have some guidance over it. Some of it I won’t. Whatever happens, it’s going to be an emotional process, from the indicators. but rather than fight the change, or dreading what’s around the corner, I find myself ready and wanting at least certain changes.
On occasion my sensei will talk about inviting the chaos, meaning that in a fight, which is chaos, we are the still point, able to adapt because we are able to adapt and go with it rather than fight it. That is the approach I’m taking here. Change is chaos. If you don’t think so, think about how many changes you have seen that didn’t produce some sort of chaos, even if only for a short time. So I can try to resist the chaos and let it overwhelm me, or I can go with it, ride it like a surfer riding a wave.
I’ve spent the last week since the clinic deciding what kind of changes I want to introduce into my life. Some changes I can make, others will be made for me, whether I want them or not. I’ve already started making some of those changes, mainly by being open to what comes instead of shutting it out. Tuesday I have a blind lunch date. It’s a long story, at least longer than I want to go into here. Suffice it to say that three weeks ago, I probably would have turned it down.
In the spirit of change and growth, I’ve decided upon some goals for 2008. They’re not resolutions, so I’m not waiting until New Year’s to start them. Well, some of them anyway. I’m laying the ground work now for the things to come next year, but those things are a topic for another time. for now, it’s enough to know that change is coming, and I’m ready. Ready as I’m going to be, anyway.