inspiration
This past week was rather interesting, most of it went rather well. Work had its share of challenges, but definitely better than it has been in recent months. I want to tell you about the last couple of days in particular, and I won’t really be talking about work.
I’ve been thinking about my life a lot lately. As I said in my last post, the back injury has brought up a lot of old stuff to work through. Although physically painful and annoying, I think it’s a very good thing, because I’m healing emotionally as well as physically, confronting some inner conditions that are manifesting externally.
So yesterday I went to see the movie Stardust, an excellent movie adapted from the book by Neil Gaiman, whose writing I admire greatly. Anyway, there is a strong magickal component that runs through the movie, and it got me to thinking about something I’ve thought about on and off my entire life: that I’d like my life to be magickal too. It occurred to me yesterday and today that my life is, in fact, already magickal, it’s just that I haven’t seen it that way until now. Another thing I’ve realized is, I have the ability to determine how mundane or magickal my life is going be.
I know there are others out there who want the same thing, a wonderful magickal life. I have figured out why a lot of people, self included until now, only want it and never achieve it: we don’t believe our lives are magickal. There are a couple of keys to making it work, simple keys that are not always easy to do. You must believe you’re life is magickal, you must expect magickal things to happen, and you must act in such a way to attract those things to you. Belief without action is daydreaming, and action without belief is futility. The first fails because people do not prepare things that would allow it to come into their life, the second repels it because beliefs motivate actions. If people don’t believe it, they will at some point falter and give up, or sabotage themselves out of what they truly want.
Today I was watching my favorite movie, Serendipity. While I was out shopping for a curtain for my bedroom, I thought - what would it be like to sit down and write out what my future could be like? Why not write a story with the idea of making it come true? And just like that, something I haven’t had in a while came back - the desire to write. I haven’t worked on my book in some time, something it’s time to do something about. But I have ideas for other stories I want to write - stories about my future, about who I could be and what I could do. It will be an experiment of mine, writing things, seeing where they could go. I may just write some other, hopefully inspirational fiction as well.
Ok, this post has turned out to be a bit longer than anticipated, but I feel inspired, a bit rejuvenated, maybe the best I’ve felt this year. I put some weight back on after the injury, but that has started going away as I get back to eating healthy and fix internal issues as well. I know I’m losing because my pants are starting to loosen up again, and in a week or two, I could move back to the belt notch I was using before gaining some weight back. So, I’ m going to go relax and finish winding down and get ready for bed.