Ho’opono
This past week was an interesting week for me. Hopefully I wasn’t overly bitchy towards my co-workers though.
I tried this past week to return to a strictly raw diet, but didn’t succeed. My weakness, as usual: sugar. Although I did have a couple days where I managed to get through the day without foods containing processed sugar, they were the exception rather than the rule. Boy did I pay for it. Exhaustion, general grumpiness, just feeling like crap in general was the end result. Which naturally I took out on my co-workers, sort of. I didn’t go to jujitsu class last week either.
I have been working on ho’opono this last week or two. Ho’opono is a Hawaiian word which means to make right with yourself. My diet has been preventing that, probably on multiple levels. Fact is, i wasn’t very happy last week. I think a lot of it had to do with fatigue, which I trace back to eating sugar. Interestingly enough though, I also read Dan Millman’s book, Way of the Peaceful Warrior. I wanted to see the movie in the theatre, but it was gone in just 3 weeks, and hasn’t shown up at the dollor theatre yet. I think I may have a bit to learn from Mr. Millman’s books.
Anyway, I’m working on making things right with myself, doing some self-maintenance, as it were. I’ve started doing some minor painting around the house, having primed the front and back door, although the front door frame needs another coat. I bought white paint today to paint one of my bathrooms that needs it, and I bought and put in moulding in the bedroom that’s been missing since I moved into the house. I think you can see the parallel between fixing up the house and me. I bought a few plants today for the porch planter, and another for the meditation room. I threw out some dead plants, transplanted the new ones, and finally planted my lucky bamboo into some dirt from the water they’ve been in forever. While it’s true I have company coming in a couple weeks for a party, I would have done this anyway. The energy in the house was getting stale. I’m changing and the house is starting to change to reflect that. Last weekend I got rid of a bunch of dishes I don’t use any more, lids without pots, that kind of thing. I bought shelves and got rid of the hulking entertainment center last week, and the living room is feeling more open than it did. I hope to repeat that with some other rooms too.
I’ve added a couple pictures to the bedroom, and restored some of my visualization pictures, I’m starting to do visualization exercises again. I’d let that go, and they were really good for me. There’s a lot of stuff that I’m going to put back in my life, but in a way that makes sense. Before my last girlfriend, things were coming together, but not necessarily in a way that made sense to me. Now I can stand back and see what was working and what wasn’t, and rearrange accordingly.
Tomorrow night I’ll be back in class, I haven’t been in a couple of weeks due to sickness, work, and exhaustion. but I’ve rested some this weekend too, so I’m looking forward to it. I thought I may not test for my black belt this year because there’s less than 6 months to the test now. Maybe I will after all. Time will tell.