serenity
I know I don’t normally post on Wednesdays, but I really want to share this with you. Tonight was the first jujitsu class of the new year, and the first in almost 2 weeks.
Earlier this afternoon I seriously thought about not going to class. Lunch, which I had to buy out, didn’t sit well in my stomach. But I wasn’t about to start out the new year by sitting out the first class either, especially with some lame excuse like that.
I was feeling somewhat better when I got there, and when I stepped on the mat, I was jazzed. Not being on the mat in almost 2 weeks and not being able to do what I wanted around the house, I had a little bit of excess energy flowing.
Class was awesome… started out with some yawara, then into the nage, or throws. It really wound up being an advanced throwing class tonight, and I learned a lot. I mean really a lot. Found out some stuff I have to work on in my head, which is good, because if I fix them now, it’s less to work on later.
I came out of class kind of jazzed too. I was ready for more. But at the same time, I just looked up at the sky, and the beautiful full moon, and the stars. I feel really centered right now, really serene, like everything is where it should be, as if I could just stand and feel the life of the earth all around me. Maybe the eye of a hurricane is a good example, except I don’t see the swirling and destruction going on around me, it’s the eye of the hurricane without the hurricane part.
There’s just such a sense of peace and rightness that can’t be put into words, no matter how I try. 2007 is going to be a good year, I can feel it in my bones. And I am grateful.