finality
It’s been an interesting weekend - yesterday I did some minor shopping other than grocery shopping, bought myself a rose quartz and some gold wire to wrap it with and my body decided it needed to catch up on some sleep. Today I did something I haven’t done in years - I cleaned out my filing cabinet.
The cleansing and healing process is continuing, and likely will for some time to come. Today I cleaned out, threw away, and burned paperwork I’ve had in my possession for 15 years or more. It was very cathartic to get rid of it, to clean out a lot of old baggage. I almost said to make room for new stuff, but I really don’t want new stuff to come in and fill up that space - I just want to lighten my load for a bit. Maybe later I’ll replace it with new stuff, but I don’t want garbage hanging around, which is how I had so much to throw away to start with - I just want stuff I’ll use.
I burned a lot of stuff today, for a couple reasons. First, I returned all that accumulated energy to the universe. Second, even though some of those financial records were 15+ years old, my social security number is still the same, and I still want to keep it private, as much as possible with today’s technology.
The floor of the meditation room is still a mess though - I haven’t gotten everything put away yet, but there’s a lot less to put away than there was. And that’s a good thing.
So, even though I’m really just at the beginning of my journey towards healing, physcally and otherwise, I felt like today was the official end of a period of my life that was only told in the paperwork that I got rid of. There’s no going back to it now. I don’t want to go back to it, some things are better left as memories.