pre-clinic thoughts
Tomorrow starts the four day Palmetto Fall Clinic, hosted by the martial arts school I attend. I’m really excited to go, but before I do, I want to say a few things that have been on my mind since the last post. Since I may not have time to post until after the clinic is over on Sunday, I need to get them written down now.
First, my final daily weigh in on Monday was 201. Minus the weight of clothing, I still have about 24 pounds to lose. Which I’m sure I will do, as I will explain ahead. I finally got my Halloween decorations taken down on Sunday too, which needed to be done. Monday I went to see my acupuncturist, and he was impressed - he said my pulses were the strongest and most balanced he’s ever felt them, he said there was no reason to needle me. So I came home, got my gi, and went off to class.
Monday and yesterday were very good days for me., and I think in large part that’s because I decided they were going to be good days for me, just like today will be (it’s 5:50 am or so right now). I had a reading recently, in which it was pointed out to me that I don’t really know what I want. Being a fairly indecisive person a lot of the time, I have to admit she was right on the money. As I mentioned in an earlier post, I watched The Secret, an excellent movie about the law of attraction and getting things you desire by changing your way of thinking. So it all started percolating in my head. The reason the Universe hasn’t given me what I want, or changed things I want changed, is because I didn’t know what I wanted them changed to. And as the movie correctly points out, the law of attraction simply says that you will get more of what you are concentrating on. So even if you concentrate on solving a problem, you attract more of that problem to you because you’ve given it your attention.
So I’m taking a new approach. Over the last several days, I’ve looked at my life and things and people I want in it, and written it all down in a notebook. Every morning when I wake up and before I go to sleep I express my gratitude to the Universe for bringing those people and things into my life, into physical reality. And I’m working on a bulletin board type setup where I will put pictures representing those people and things I desire to attract to me - my universal goal board. I’m not going to worry about the how of it - that’s the Universe’ job - mine is to determine what I desire and tell the Universe and let it arrange the circumstances.
Before you think I’ve gone off the deep end, let me say that I don’t expect to wake up one morning and find these people and things lying at my door step. I realize that I will have to work to get them - possibly very hard. I’m simply relying on the Universe to put me in the right places so that ultimately my hard work results in the things I do want. I determine what, the Universe determines how. Seems like a pretty good system to me.
One other thing: interestingly enough, a friend of mine has contacted me about an idea for writing some software. While I haven’t looked into the matter too deeply yet, the idea is sound and potentially lucrative. I find it interesting and not coincidental that this idea was presented to me out of the blue by someone I talk to infrequently now and only a few days after I started telling the Universe exactly what I want. Acting upon inspired guidance is necessary to get where I want to go - it looks like my initial journey is down an unexpected path - but then again, don’t the most interesting journeys start that way?