reflections and a perspective shift
I was at the monthly Reiki Shares we’re trying to get established, and the first person I worked on was a stranger to me. Nothing unusual about that, I don’t know a good number of the people I work on.
What challenged me about this lady was that she was still having trouble accepting a break up with her boyfriend. Mirror anyone? Talk about seeing a reflection of what’s going on, wow. My marriage failed a long time ago, and I accept that. I seem to have gotten stuck in the anger phase towards my ex-wife, and I’m trying to let it all go. I’ve accepted the fact that she’s gone, I’m glad she’s gone, but I’m also angry at her, and I haven’t let it all go yet.
But that’s not the real reflection, that’s just the surface. The reflection for me is that I’m now finally processing out my feelings about my late wife. I realize now that I married way too soon after her death, and because of it, I never really completed the grieving/releasing process, although I thought I had. Live and learn.
The events of the last several days have led me to believe that there is still something fundamentally wrong with my life. While I am recovering from the loss of my late wife, and dealing with the anger towards my ex-wife, there is an underlying problem with the way I deal with life, and it’s long past time I do something about it.
I finished watching The Secret today, an excellent movie about the Law of Attraction. I know this seems unrelated, but stay with me. The basic premise of the movie is along the lines of What the Bleep Do We Know, namely that our thoughts create our reality. I’ve known this for some time, but for whatever reason, I’ve not given it much thought, and definitely not the attention it has deserved. So I’m thinking you’re probably asking yourself right about now, what this has to do with the subject at hand, and the answer to that is, everything. I’m responsible for my health. I’m responsible for my feelings. I’m responsible for everyone and everything that comes into my life. I’m responsbile for bringing my ex-wife and my late wife into my life. I’m responsible for the stress I’ve put myself under that caused my ulcer. I’m responsible for all of it.
I’m responsible for everything that’s gone wrong, but I’m also responsible for everything that’s gone right. I’m also responsible for allowing the conditions I’m currently in to continue. And I’m responsible for changing them if that’s what I want. I’ll tel you right now, that’s what I want. So, I’m making the decision right now to focus my thoughts on what I do want, not on the things I don’t. If my thoughts create my reality, much like an artist creates a painting, then watch out, because my life is going to transform into a masterpiece of exquisite beauty. It’s not going to happen overnight, or next week, or even next month. Regardless, I can start working my these things into my thoughts tonight. When the universe is ready and sufficiently impressed with my thoughts and desires, it will begin to bring them my way.
That’s my perspective shift - I will see the world the way I want it to be. I’m not rejecting the world as it is. There are certain realities to life on this planet that are unavoidable, but how I deal with them is strictly in my control. By visualizing my life the way I want it, the universe must bring it to pass if I hold the thought clearly enough and passionately enough.
The first change I’m going to make in regards to this is my weight. I’m not going to get on the scale everyday any more. Rather, I’m going to visualize myself getting on that scale and it reading what I want it to read. I weighed in Friday around 202, yesterday at 202.8, then this morning at 201.8. I’ll weight myself tomorrow morning, then not again until the following week.
If you think you’ve seen a lot of changes in me since my last marriage ended, you haven’t seen anything yet.