patience may be a virtue, but….
This past Sunday I went to the first official Reiki Shares held at the Magyck Veil, held a couple of hours prior to the full moon ritual. Sadly enough, I was really the only Reiki practitioner in attendance. There was at least one other who would normally have been there except for family stuff, and another actually was in the store, but couldn’t really partcipate because she was running the register.
While it was good to get in some practice, about 3 hours worth, it was also frustrating. I had hoped to be on the receiving end of some also, not just giving. I think for me the most frustrating part was that there was a circle about 2 weeks prior to that on a Thursday that had some interested people, but two weeks later no one was interested. I don’t get it.
For me, Reiki has turned out to be another thing in my life that I do well but don’t really get to do often. After my attunements years ago, I thought my purpose in this space and in this time was to be a healer - but the universe disabused me of that notion long ago. It did help my late wife out a lot with pain control until the final stages of her cancer, and I sometimes wonder if that was why I learned it and now it’s time to just move on, but I still have a hard time believing it.
But it does bring up a deeper question for me: why am I here, and why do I have the abilities I have? Sometimes it seems like the skills I have are just going to waste. I know that I can do anything I choose to, and do it well. Did I choose wrong when I was younger, was I supposed to learn something different than I did and I’m off course? Or am I on course and I just can’t see it because of some fog bank I happen to be in at the moment? Only time will tell.