the phagos blog

Ok, so it’s cheesy, but hey, I have to write something to amuse myself now and then. Anyway, some friends of mine and I are taking our first stumbling steps towards establishing a Reiki Shares group here in Columbia. Although it’s a couple of days away still, I think my body is getting ready for our first session. I hope it becomes a regular thing, I haven’t regularly practiced on other people except for the 16 month stretch starting with my late wife’s diagnosis of cancer and her passing.

It almost feels odd to be looking forward to doing energy work again.  At one time I thought my calling was to be a healer, but that never really panned out.  I went through a period with a lot of self-doubt about that part of my life.  For a while after my wife’s death, I went through a period where I really thought the primary reason I was led to Reiki and energy work in general was to help ease her passing.  I’m at the place now where I don’t believe that’s true any longer, but I’m not sure what the reason is yet.  I feel like it’s there, ready to be revealed, but waiting for me to do something before that can happen, and I don’t know what it is I’m supposed to do so it can be revealed.

Regardless, I am looking forward to Thursday night.  Although I work on people infrequently at best, I do a short Reiki meditation in the morning after my regular meditation.  My Reiki meditation consists of cleansing myself, then sending out energy to the entire world, making it available to any place and anyone who is open to it.  Not quite the same thing, but practice is practice.
Reiki is one more piece of the puzzle that is my life right now - I find it interesting that this year really seems to be about reinventing and finding myself.  Since the split and subsequent divorce, I’ve found myself rebuilding my life the way I want it, bringing in the people and situations I want rather than letting someone else make some of those decisions.  I do more energy work, at least on myself and in meditation, I’ve kept the jujitsu classes, although I’ve had my struggles there, and I finished the first module of seifukujitsu, the massage style associated with the art I practice.  I started the second module, but for reasons I won’t go into here, didn’t stay with it, at least not this year.  Next time it’s offered I’m there.

So back to the energy work.  I’ll just leave that in Tara’s hands and She’ll make sure that what needs to happen will happen - although She may need someone down here to help out her plans.

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