a kick in the complacency
This past week I went to Nashville for a couple days, someplace I haven’t really been before. It was the culmination of events that began about a month ago. I had a couple of psychic readings done at a fair, and both told me I would have an opportunity to move on in the net couple months, putting it in the mid to late September time frame. One of the readings specifically suggested Nashville. He indicated I have a talent for writing, which is true to a certain extent, and said it was my choice, but I would ultimately be happier in the long run if I moved there than if I stay where I am. That came as a bit of a shock to me, as I hadn’t really considered moving to Tennessee, especially to the home of country music, which I don’t really like. But in the interest of not closing off possibilities before I investigate them, I followed some of his suggestions, which culminated in the trip.
Prior to this trip, I hadn’t been back to a city of more than 1 million people in quite some time, so it was kind of a shock to see a lot of suburban features all around. Tennessee itself is gorgeous country though. The giant, ancient oaks were some of the most impressive trees I’ve seen, There’s a feel to the land, like that of ancient, solid earth beneath your feet. I keep coming back to the word eldritch to describe the forests there, they’re just incredible. I could really handle spending a lot of time in them. You see, someday I want a house in the woods in the middle of nowhere, and I want a job that let’s me just decide that I’m going to step outside and spend time in the forest rather than work. It was suggested to me in this reading that if I moved to Nashville, I’d meet someone who writes music but isn’t necessarily good with lyrics, and we’d form some sort of song writing team. I was a bit skeptical, as I’ve never really tried my hand at writing lyrics, but I’m not going to say I can’t or won’t do it either.
Anyway, after having been there and back now, what I can say is this: it’s a beautiful place, but I’m not sure I want to live there. I need to spend some more time there and get the feel of the city before I decide whether I like it that much or not. Having said all that, I don’t know what Tara, or the Fates have in store for me. I make my own choices, and occasionally Great Spirit steps in and I go somewhere I didn’t expect to go, but it’s always worked out for the best so far.
Somehow, I wonder about all this - am I really supposed to go to Nashville, or was that something I was supposed to believe so that I would follow through and experience something else instead? Prior to this, I figured I was pretty much in charge of my own destiny, except for the nudge here or there I’ve gotten over the years, and after the reading, I put everything in the Goddess’ hands. And after this trip, I realize - I’m still in charge of it all, except for those nudges I’ll get along the way. Regardless of what happens in the future, I did get one thing from the trip: a kick in the complacency. In some undefinable way, I feel like some of the things I do don’t work for me any longer, and it’s time to clean them out. That’s been an on going process for me for a while now, but somehow the trip has increased my desire to complete the process - I feel like there’s something waiting but I can’t get there until I’ve gotten things cleaned out and in order presently. I don’t know what it might be, but I feel instinctively drawn to it, that I desire it because it’s the next step waiting to happen on this journey called life.
I think everyone needs a kick in the complacency now and then. Not everyone needs to go to Nashville, but now and then people need to be shaken up, to remember that life is much more than just the routine they’re living at the moment.
My deepest thanks to Carol at Zierra Myst and the crew at Cosmic Connections for making me feel so welcome, I’ll definitely be back to visit.